I was obsessed with my weight and appearance when I was in high school. I didn’t know it then, but I suffered from disordered eating. I did lose weight, but I was incredibly unhappy and food terrified me.
Due to some other things going on in my life, I was suicidal for a good portion of a year and was admitted to a treatment center. When I was discharged, I dove right into self-care.
I slowly learned how to appreciate food and my body, but after a year or so, I began to find comfort in food and I gained 60lbs in a year.
I continued to gain weight throughout my first year of college and here I am, all 205lbs of me. Though I don’t hate my body anymore, I’m unhappy with myself. I want to learn to love exercise again and find that balance of nutrition and happiness.
This blog will document that.